Some things just don’t change…and some do.

Ahh, so I told myself I would not blog again until I really had something to say. Not just blabble or posting a million picts to feel like somebody was reading my blog. Nope, never cared about that. For me it was writing for the pure enjoyment of it. If people read it, awesome, and many awesome friendships I created from writing here. Many I hold dear to my heart to this day. Some I have much thought about and wanted to reconnect with and some I hope to see again in all their glory.

So, today without further ado I sit down at the computer. What would MLBlogs hold for me? What would I see? Who might grace the front page with some great article or insightful piece that would remind me what I was missing in my hiatus away from this site?

Well low and behold. More of the same. I had to laugh. More promotion, more pimping to the masses and more selling. I know I missed great articles from real people and moments I could go back and catch up, but for me it’s moving forward. When I came back from my travels and my aunt was dying, I meant it when I said I wanted to prioritize what was most important and I did. So for the crap that is still the same, I’ll never buy you nor will I care somebody is getting a paycheck and pretending to be all about the baseball. The real baseball seeps through into the ballpark conversations on a summers eve or the lone blogger who gets excited everytime fingers hit the keys even if nobody reads it. The real baseball doesn’t pretend or name drop to fuel an ego. Blah blah blah. Just more of the same.

So without further ado yet again, here is what I really wanted to write…

Wow, hard to believe another year of baseball is upon us. I can think back to the ending of last year and the last game I went to. I had just gotten a job and I could finally pay for a ticket again! What a great feeling it was. I can remember the moment walking into the ballpark. My heart was racing like it was my first game ever. I could smell the food, feel the sun warming my skin and I had to laugh as two good friends I had met over the season were busy chattering away between themselves as I strolled behind them. They walked oblivious as to the moment I was having. Filled with emotions, I just walked silent. I couldn’t tell you what they were talking about because I was so thankful for the moment and the feeling of just being there. Baseball had been part of an amazing journey for me and here was the culmination for this season.

We laughed, we watched, we saw a win to end the season for me. These two people were emblematic of this whole thing. “I knew all the rules but the rules did not know me, guaranteed.” You might recognize these fine people. They were a microcosm of America and everything that was good about my journey with baseball. Strangers months before, friends that day and beyond.


Thumbnail image for DSCN0708.JPGFlash forward

March 22, 2010 the sun is setting on the Arizona highway. My Iphone chooses the soundtrack of my life but my mind is elsewhere.

cactom2.JPGOne year ago I was unemployed gearing up for the largest journey of my life. I had just cashed in every penny I ever owned, liquidated my belongings and decided to meet America through it’s people and it’s baseball fans.

This day I had a great job. A job that allowed me the freedom to jump into a rental car and zoom off to spring training to once again find that freedom that awaited me. I had sat in 75 degree weather and yet again felt that feeling of euphoria. Simple things awaited me and I found them. I found more amazing conversations with complete strangers. I found a simplicity in the game I love and the people who follow it.

I could think back to end of the summer as I watched my aunt die and her amazing spirit kept fighting on. She would let me take her up a 14,000 ft peak and we would laugh and take in those moments as we knew they would be some of her last. The Rockies would falter in the playoffs and baseball didn’t seem so important. The winter months would come and snow would cover the life that had blossomed all summer. Death would come just before Christmas, but there was so many precious moments before that. Moments to remember and legends to pass on. My aunt would be upset if she knew I wasn’t writing. She didn’t care what I wrote, because to her it was always good and she knew it made me happy. Sometimes people know what is best for you before you do.

The road would rise to meet the rubber of my tires as I headed east and north back to Colorado. I couldn’t help but think how much was different. A good job, a great family, friends I looked so forward to reconnecting with in the following months. But with death comes life and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t thinking about my son who will be born in late July.

The hours turned into minutes as the night cloaked me and left me to more of my thoughts. I could see his mother and I laughing about painting her belly like a baseball or maybe it might score a few more autographs, kinda like the kid rule. Maybe the pregnant lady rule could get her a full team ball this year. We would see. Because as some things stay the same some don’t. My future will no longer be about Rocky Mountain Way, interestingly enough it’s now Rocky Mountain Ways.

So a big apology to those who have worried about me or wondered what happened to me. “Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans,” and let’s just say I’ve been a bit busy : ) I will talk more about my work helping fund life saving research, my sons advancement into this world and of course the Colorado Rockies among so many other things. It’s what I do.

8 Comments

Tom! I had been wondering what you’ve been up to since last September! I’m very sorry to hear about your aunt. And what’s this about an upcoming son?? Hmm, you have been busy. ;-) Glad to see you back writing again – I always enjoy reading your entries – they’re so much more heartfelt and insightful than mine will ever be. I’ll be looking forward to your next entry, whenever it may be.
Sue
Rants, Raves, and Random Thoughts

TOM!!! You’re back!!! I’ve missed your blog since September. I’m so sorry to hear about your aunt. From the short amount of time I’ve known you, I know you’ll keep her spirit alive. Congratulations on the upcoming birth of your son! July 20 would be a great day for him to be born. :) Yes, that’s totally my birthday hahaha! As it stands now, I’ll be in Colorado the last weekend of July, so if it doesn’t interfere too much with being a new dad, you should probably come to the Rockies game on the 31st since I promised you a game last year. And I don’t back down on my promises. :) Glad to have you back writing!
Jen
http://ajroxmywhitesox.mlblogs.com

HI!!!!
Obviously after talking to you last night I had to read your new blog entry. Oh man, we had such a good time that day, and I can’t wait to maybe catch another game… maybe with a pint-sized fan :D I’m so excited for the three of you.
I’m so happy for you. You are such a wonderful big brother and I wish you nothing less than the best. I know you will excel at anything and everything you do, including being a father. :)
Kylie — http://kylie.mlblogs.com not that I’ve updated since August…

Wow Tom, I forgot how much I loved reading your posts. My friend and I always planned on using her sister’s baby to get autographs and what not. I can’t wait to catch a game with you and hear more about the life you’re living.
Emily
http://deconstructingthoughts.mlblogs.com/

Yes! You’re back!! We missed you so much here. Thanks for the update. So sorry to hear about your aunt. She will be in my prayers. Also, congrats on the upcoming birth of your son!
Can’t wait to see the Padres play against the Rockies throughout the season! I hope I can meet you at Petco or Coors :)http://hyunyoung.mlblogs.com

Tommy,
The Winter is the worst for someone like me no matter what becuase a day without baseball is like a day without sunshine.
And since I live in the Sunshine Capital of the World, St. Petersburg, Florida….Winter would suck like the long Alaskan nights.
Glad your prospects for fiscal independence is looking skyward. I also revel for that day, and hope you can again embrace the game with joy, happiness and a few great high-five with your new Rockies friends.
Be well my friend, and hope you have more to talk about soon…because some of us did miss you…and your writings.

Rays Renegade

http://raysrenegade.mlblogs.com

Hello, Tom. First of all, my condolences for your loss. May you find peace in your grieving. I found your blog via Jezierski’s posted links (her timeout at the plate interview with you). I am now glad I had a chance to come here and read some of your entries. You are indeed a good writer. Oh, not criticizing you here, but it’s lo and behold, not “low and behold.” I figured you’d appreciate the heads-up on that.

Like you, I am also disgusted by the crap that doesn’t change. I do enjoy reading some of Keith Olbermann’s blog entries; unfortunately, MLBLOGS spends too much time promoting his entries just because he is a celebrity. I write for the pure joy of writing; however, I also have hope that many people get the chance to read my writing. Frankly, I have absolutely no idea how many readers I have at all; nevertheless, that won’t stop me from writing.

Best of luck to you and your Rockies this season, Tom. As always, your team will generate plenty of offense; it’s the pitching I have questions about. The Rockies pitching staff is better than outsiders generally give it credit for; however, I also don’t view it as spectacular. I’ll just say that it’s solid with plenty of upside. Thus far, I’ve seen Todd Helton already taking a bit of a break on my fantasy baseball team. I’m guessing your Rockies want to keep his back as relaxed as possible this season.

WOW! Tom!! I’m sorry to say that I haven’t checked your blog in a very long time, at least sometime before this entry was posted. Like Emily said, I didn’t realize how much I missed reading your entries!! Glad to hear that you’re still alive and well. I still pray for you every once in a while too :) Hope things are still going well for you my friend, and we miss you a lot!!
http://kaybee.mlblogs.com

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